I've been having some pretty unsettling thoughts as of lately. But in the midst of these thoughts, I took the time to reflect on my short lived life and draw some conclusions about myself.
I decided to keep it real.
I'm studying in the field of education, so, naturally, you'd expect that I would like to pursue a career as a teacher, or something of the sort. But when I ponder this decision, I realize that my zest for life and this potential career option do not line up. Maybe they do, but for now, all I can say is- I probably wouldn't like to be a teacher. Don't get me wrong, I love teaching, I do. But I believe that teaching and education stretch far beyond four classroom walls. I know I've been called to teach, but in what capacity, I do not know... yet.
But this realization came from a couple of things. I believe that we should always be honest with ourselves, and call things out for what they are. Our outward productions of character should never mirror other people's expectations of us, regarding the determination of our career choices.
Long story short, I've been living for other people. I've been reading the blueprint of my life through a conformist's societal lens. When I think about where this career path may lead me, for some reason, I feel as if I'm following the course of a lifestyle that is rather monotonous and laden with the shoe prints of those who've taken the same route.
I want to 'travel the road less travelled by'. I want to be the first to enter into a dense, wild and heavily populated land laden with pristine vegetation and undefiled sources of hydration.
I do not want to step comfortably in line with the masses. I do not want to adhere to external expectations based off of the guidelines established by someone who lived eons before I did.
I want to live a life of creativity. Of travel. Of seeking pleasure in the spectacular mysteries of life. Of living simply. Of touching the minds, hearts and souls of those around me. I want to be the one that pursues active change, rather than being the kind of person who simply says things because they sound good. I do not want to be bound by the shackles of someone else.
I do not want to live for other people. I want to live for other people.
I don't want to serve other people, I want to serve other people.
Sounds crazy, huh. What I'm saying is this. I never want to live my life feeling as though I have to abide by someone else's measuring stick. I refuse to accept the impossible task of incorporating what every else feels like I should be doing into my every day life. I should be able to wake up and have the freedom to creatively decide how I am going to be of service to other people, and not worry about how I will be able to please everyone else. I don't want to fear rejection by anyone simply because of the choices that I have decided to make regarding what I, Aldavina Dos Santos, will be doing for the rest of my life.
I don't want to live for other people. I want my life to reflect a life lived for the purposes of assisting others in areas of their greatest need, and there is a major difference. Living under the jurisdiction of other people can be crippling to our character and potential, and that isn't something I'm too fond of experiencing.
My passion is in the service of other people- not trying to perform required duties like a voice commanded robot.
In conclusion, the only Boss I ever want to have is the only One who actually created every fiber of my being, and who knows me better than I could ever know myself . One who's life I can pattern mine after in order to understand what a life lived in the service of others actually entails. I have chosen Him as my standard, and I know that I will be able to achieve exponentially beyond any plan I could ever conjure up in my teensy weensy mind. I'll let Christ be my Boss, and I shall progress from here. But until then, I guess I'll finish up my current course of study, because that's what society tells me to do.
Stay groovy, Keep Kickin'
-Alda.
I decided to keep it real.
I'm studying in the field of education, so, naturally, you'd expect that I would like to pursue a career as a teacher, or something of the sort. But when I ponder this decision, I realize that my zest for life and this potential career option do not line up. Maybe they do, but for now, all I can say is- I probably wouldn't like to be a teacher. Don't get me wrong, I love teaching, I do. But I believe that teaching and education stretch far beyond four classroom walls. I know I've been called to teach, but in what capacity, I do not know... yet.
But this realization came from a couple of things. I believe that we should always be honest with ourselves, and call things out for what they are. Our outward productions of character should never mirror other people's expectations of us, regarding the determination of our career choices.
Long story short, I've been living for other people. I've been reading the blueprint of my life through a conformist's societal lens. When I think about where this career path may lead me, for some reason, I feel as if I'm following the course of a lifestyle that is rather monotonous and laden with the shoe prints of those who've taken the same route.
I want to 'travel the road less travelled by'. I want to be the first to enter into a dense, wild and heavily populated land laden with pristine vegetation and undefiled sources of hydration.
I do not want to step comfortably in line with the masses. I do not want to adhere to external expectations based off of the guidelines established by someone who lived eons before I did.
I want to live a life of creativity. Of travel. Of seeking pleasure in the spectacular mysteries of life. Of living simply. Of touching the minds, hearts and souls of those around me. I want to be the one that pursues active change, rather than being the kind of person who simply says things because they sound good. I do not want to be bound by the shackles of someone else.
I do not want to live for other people. I want to live for other people.
I don't want to serve other people, I want to serve other people.
Sounds crazy, huh. What I'm saying is this. I never want to live my life feeling as though I have to abide by someone else's measuring stick. I refuse to accept the impossible task of incorporating what every else feels like I should be doing into my every day life. I should be able to wake up and have the freedom to creatively decide how I am going to be of service to other people, and not worry about how I will be able to please everyone else. I don't want to fear rejection by anyone simply because of the choices that I have decided to make regarding what I, Aldavina Dos Santos, will be doing for the rest of my life.
I don't want to live for other people. I want my life to reflect a life lived for the purposes of assisting others in areas of their greatest need, and there is a major difference. Living under the jurisdiction of other people can be crippling to our character and potential, and that isn't something I'm too fond of experiencing.
My passion is in the service of other people- not trying to perform required duties like a voice commanded robot.
In conclusion, the only Boss I ever want to have is the only One who actually created every fiber of my being, and who knows me better than I could ever know myself . One who's life I can pattern mine after in order to understand what a life lived in the service of others actually entails. I have chosen Him as my standard, and I know that I will be able to achieve exponentially beyond any plan I could ever conjure up in my teensy weensy mind. I'll let Christ be my Boss, and I shall progress from here. But until then, I guess I'll finish up my current course of study, because that's what society tells me to do.
Stay groovy, Keep Kickin'
-Alda.
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