Ahh. Oh Senior year, how you hope to trip me up.
I am currently facing the most difficult time in my academic experience. I feel as if I have been on "go mode" ever since the beginning of the last academic year: Swept through two semesters of classes and work, mixed with extracurricular demands and a teaching gig in Brasil, sprinkled with holding myself together and trying not to be too much of a burden on those who are closest to me. It's been a tid much.
Something about little ol' me: I'm a bit of a hard headed person when it comes to my health. I guess I'm just like a lot of people in their twenties who think their bungee cord is laced with a guarantee of invincibility. Even so, my young and restless days are coming to a close, and my health is definitely catching up to me, faster than I can say "inflamed rotator cuff" or "ulnar nerve entrapment". Life is getting real.
I'm finding it increasingly difficult to concentrate... and assignments that I would once breeze through are taking me ridiculous amounts of time to complete. Not to mention this blog that I've neglected in the last couple of months.
But the show must go on! (A timely cliche).
The point is: I'm drained. I actually have scores of negative amounts of motivation scraping themselves across the forsaken desert of my desolate veins, whilst the battered nerve endings in my brain curl themselves into the fetal position, refusing to pay any mind to the idea of work. They whisper, assignments? what assignments?
I could go on a one man stampede, spewing forth all kinds of foolishness bouncing around the cluttered walls of my mind. But I won't.
In one of my earlier blogs, I wrote about how sometimes happiness is as simple as choosing to adopt that specific state of mind. But in times like these, ehh, maybe it's not so easy. So instead of moping around, clawing my way through a depression filled life, I'm going to try to "look at the bright side" because "it could be worse".
So I guess I'll start by thinking about the people in my circle.
I have amazing friends. I'll choose one of them to write about today. I find myself thinking about what my life could possibly be like without her presence illuminating my dreary days.
How many friends can you honestly say will go out of their way to give you hot coal massages, complete with aromatherapy and classical tunes that are sure to take you out of the most abysmal state of minds that you could ever find yourself in? How many of your Bio major friends would actually take the time out of their hectic schedules to volunteer to type up your papers, and simultaneously double as your academic cheerleader? Or how many friends can you count on all your fingers and toes that would find you in whatever crevasse you may be hiding in, just to present you with a vegan burrito that would make Chipotle's cheeks burn with envy?
All I can say is: I know I am truly loved. And when I think about the immense about of love God had for me when He saw it a priority to choose my best friend Esther to imbue with His character, that I may see Him through her well appreciated acts of love... man... it does something to my baby koala heart. If you're reading this Esther, please know: you have my heart. Not because of what you do, but because of who you are. And because you have allowed God's light to shine freely through you, you have positioned yourself to be a source of motivation for me to continue in my studies. Thank you for never giving up on our friendship, and I thank your beautiful parents for placing you here on this earth to season the world... I love you.
I encourage you to think about the people God has chosen to place in your life. We don't give enough credit to the people who help hold our chins up when the pressures of the world weigh in at seven tons and three quarters.
Pray for well deserved blessings to rain upon them. Pray for their happiness... pray for the continuous spreading of their beautiful love... and pray for their everlasting friendship.
Stay Groovy, Keep Kickin'
-Alda.
I am currently facing the most difficult time in my academic experience. I feel as if I have been on "go mode" ever since the beginning of the last academic year: Swept through two semesters of classes and work, mixed with extracurricular demands and a teaching gig in Brasil, sprinkled with holding myself together and trying not to be too much of a burden on those who are closest to me. It's been a tid much.
Something about little ol' me: I'm a bit of a hard headed person when it comes to my health. I guess I'm just like a lot of people in their twenties who think their bungee cord is laced with a guarantee of invincibility. Even so, my young and restless days are coming to a close, and my health is definitely catching up to me, faster than I can say "inflamed rotator cuff" or "ulnar nerve entrapment". Life is getting real.
I'm finding it increasingly difficult to concentrate... and assignments that I would once breeze through are taking me ridiculous amounts of time to complete. Not to mention this blog that I've neglected in the last couple of months.
But the show must go on! (A timely cliche).
The point is: I'm drained. I actually have scores of negative amounts of motivation scraping themselves across the forsaken desert of my desolate veins, whilst the battered nerve endings in my brain curl themselves into the fetal position, refusing to pay any mind to the idea of work. They whisper, assignments? what assignments?
I could go on a one man stampede, spewing forth all kinds of foolishness bouncing around the cluttered walls of my mind. But I won't.
In one of my earlier blogs, I wrote about how sometimes happiness is as simple as choosing to adopt that specific state of mind. But in times like these, ehh, maybe it's not so easy. So instead of moping around, clawing my way through a depression filled life, I'm going to try to "look at the bright side" because "it could be worse".
So I guess I'll start by thinking about the people in my circle.
I have amazing friends. I'll choose one of them to write about today. I find myself thinking about what my life could possibly be like without her presence illuminating my dreary days.
How many friends can you honestly say will go out of their way to give you hot coal massages, complete with aromatherapy and classical tunes that are sure to take you out of the most abysmal state of minds that you could ever find yourself in? How many of your Bio major friends would actually take the time out of their hectic schedules to volunteer to type up your papers, and simultaneously double as your academic cheerleader? Or how many friends can you count on all your fingers and toes that would find you in whatever crevasse you may be hiding in, just to present you with a vegan burrito that would make Chipotle's cheeks burn with envy?
All I can say is: I know I am truly loved. And when I think about the immense about of love God had for me when He saw it a priority to choose my best friend Esther to imbue with His character, that I may see Him through her well appreciated acts of love... man... it does something to my baby koala heart. If you're reading this Esther, please know: you have my heart. Not because of what you do, but because of who you are. And because you have allowed God's light to shine freely through you, you have positioned yourself to be a source of motivation for me to continue in my studies. Thank you for never giving up on our friendship, and I thank your beautiful parents for placing you here on this earth to season the world... I love you.
I encourage you to think about the people God has chosen to place in your life. We don't give enough credit to the people who help hold our chins up when the pressures of the world weigh in at seven tons and three quarters.
Pray for well deserved blessings to rain upon them. Pray for their happiness... pray for the continuous spreading of their beautiful love... and pray for their everlasting friendship.
Stay Groovy, Keep Kickin'
-Alda.
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