A disturbance in one's soul can be easily detected through lackluster efforts in daily activity.
Guilty.
As of lately, I’ve been seeking the solution to why I’ve been lacking motivation, determination, ambition, and most importantly, vision. But as I reflected on events that took place today, I think I can safely come to an understanding of why that could possibly be.
I've unknowingly placed myself in a complex, irrationally disproportionate "reality". I've literally created a distorted world for myself, where I view everything through the lenses of external individualized standards. Now, what's that supposed to mean?
Well. It means that I've chosen to take a most precarious route whilst here on this sphere of habitation.
Essentially what I've managed to do is live each day according to the standards that I think others want me to live by. Whether we know it or not, every interaction we have with those around us can either positively or negatively affect the decisions we make. So somehow, I've decided to magically come up with the brightest and most unprecedented plan of all time. I've eliminated my own sense of input filter processing, and left the decision-making hemisphere of my mind in what I like to call "connective handicap".
Symptoms : Not being able to make decisions without the input of others. Fickleness. Distorted, irrational reality. Easily swayed. Unsure of personal standards. Unsure of belief system. Living for the approval of others. Caring about what the world has to say about you. Questioning God's plan in your life just because someone else told you it didn't make sense. Abandoning spiritual duties because you think it's a good idea to compare your calling with someone else's.
And the list could continue for eons and eons.
But I'm only 20. Good thing I caught it now rather than at the moment I find myself in a white Grecian styled wedding dress, walking down the isle to marry a man who everyone else thinks I should marry... but who I've never loved...
I'm sure I'm not the only one who is guilty of allowing the gradual pervasive nature of society’s unrealistic expectations to infiltrate its way into the functionalities of daily living.
Stop living for other people. Take what people say with two grains of salt and a dash of ground up jalapeños. This doesn't mean that you run on ahead and bask in ignorance- it just means that you've gotta wake up and realize that God gave you a mind of your own. At the beginning of the night, you have a personal relationship with a God who takes a unique interest in you. And quite frankly, your salvation does NOT lie in fulfilling the desires of others.
Stop being afraid to speak up. Stop changing what you say or believe in because someone else may not necessarily agree with it. Live for God, not for the imposing foolishness and unrealistic expectations projected by the mouths of people who can't even facilitate their own doggone lives.
You know, that's a very interesting point. People have a hard time living their life by their own standards, but then think it is okay to judge other people by these individual, invisible and unreachable standards.
So yeah. I kind of got myself in a bit of a rut. But thank God for the clarity of mind to be able to realize this sooner rather than when I'm old, useless and sitting in a one legged rocking chair trying to figure out why the events of my life led me to live in a shack with 20 ugly cats, all of which I'm allergic to.
In conclusion? Adopt a selectively permeable membrane. God in. Counterfeits out.
Stay groovy, Keep Kickin'.
-Alda.
Guilty.
As of lately, I’ve been seeking the solution to why I’ve been lacking motivation, determination, ambition, and most importantly, vision. But as I reflected on events that took place today, I think I can safely come to an understanding of why that could possibly be.
I've unknowingly placed myself in a complex, irrationally disproportionate "reality". I've literally created a distorted world for myself, where I view everything through the lenses of external individualized standards. Now, what's that supposed to mean?
Well. It means that I've chosen to take a most precarious route whilst here on this sphere of habitation.
Essentially what I've managed to do is live each day according to the standards that I think others want me to live by. Whether we know it or not, every interaction we have with those around us can either positively or negatively affect the decisions we make. So somehow, I've decided to magically come up with the brightest and most unprecedented plan of all time. I've eliminated my own sense of input filter processing, and left the decision-making hemisphere of my mind in what I like to call "connective handicap".
Symptoms : Not being able to make decisions without the input of others. Fickleness. Distorted, irrational reality. Easily swayed. Unsure of personal standards. Unsure of belief system. Living for the approval of others. Caring about what the world has to say about you. Questioning God's plan in your life just because someone else told you it didn't make sense. Abandoning spiritual duties because you think it's a good idea to compare your calling with someone else's.
And the list could continue for eons and eons.
But I'm only 20. Good thing I caught it now rather than at the moment I find myself in a white Grecian styled wedding dress, walking down the isle to marry a man who everyone else thinks I should marry... but who I've never loved...
I'm sure I'm not the only one who is guilty of allowing the gradual pervasive nature of society’s unrealistic expectations to infiltrate its way into the functionalities of daily living.
Stop living for other people. Take what people say with two grains of salt and a dash of ground up jalapeños. This doesn't mean that you run on ahead and bask in ignorance- it just means that you've gotta wake up and realize that God gave you a mind of your own. At the beginning of the night, you have a personal relationship with a God who takes a unique interest in you. And quite frankly, your salvation does NOT lie in fulfilling the desires of others.
Stop being afraid to speak up. Stop changing what you say or believe in because someone else may not necessarily agree with it. Live for God, not for the imposing foolishness and unrealistic expectations projected by the mouths of people who can't even facilitate their own doggone lives.
You know, that's a very interesting point. People have a hard time living their life by their own standards, but then think it is okay to judge other people by these individual, invisible and unreachable standards.
So yeah. I kind of got myself in a bit of a rut. But thank God for the clarity of mind to be able to realize this sooner rather than when I'm old, useless and sitting in a one legged rocking chair trying to figure out why the events of my life led me to live in a shack with 20 ugly cats, all of which I'm allergic to.
In conclusion? Adopt a selectively permeable membrane. God in. Counterfeits out.
Stay groovy, Keep Kickin'.
-Alda.
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